Vanishing for now…..

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I don’t know for how long I will be away from blogging.It is time for me to carve my own path and stand on my own legs so that my noble intentions are able to execute something great in the near future.I would like to thank my wordpress family that has been so supportive and loving.I have learnt a lot from this humble fraternity.I think in reality,I don’t feel so special as I feel here.A heart felt warm gratitude to Mrs.Ranjeeta Nath Ghai aka https://atrangizindagieksafar.com/who is the person behind my blogging.Without her I hold no existence here.I also got a pleasant opportunity to connect with great like minded bloggers here.

I would like to leave some lines from the book (Discover Your Destiny by Robin Sharma) that I have been reading recently :

”It is hard to believe that we live in a world where most people are more concerned with following the crowd and doing what everyone else is doing than living the dreams.Getting to the end or even the middle of your life and waking up one day to the understanding that you did not dare,that you did not reach for the stars,that you did not realize even one-tenth of your potential will break your heart.At the end of our lives,what fills our hearts with regret are not all the risks we took instead,what causes us to feel immense sadness is thinking about all the risks we didn’t take.There is but one failure in life that is the failure to try.”

”The past is a grave and it makes no sense to spend your life living in a grave.Every ending represents a new beginning.You cannot move forward in life if you’re stuck looking in the rear view mirror”

”Everyone of us creates a story about his own life,even if he only tells it to himself.For some,the story is all about being a victim.The way they are because of their childhoods or because of the bad things that have happened to them.So many people in the world today are professional victims.Because playing victim is easy.You do have to take have to assume any responsibility for the way your life looks.You can blame everyone else for what’s not working in your life,never having to look at yourself and make the changes required.”

”Every year I live I am more convinced that the waste of life lies in the love we have not given,the powers we have not used,the self prudence that will risk nothing,and which,shirking pain, missed happiness as well.No one ever yet was poorer in the long run having once in a lifetime let out all the length of the reins.”

These were the above few lines that have forced me to take control of my life so that I don’t regret later.
As I see so many great people around me who are doing noble work for the needy,all I realize is that their lives have never been easy.It has always been a struggle yet they never brag or blame anyone for their past failures.It enlightens me with the fact that our success is directly proportional with the sacrifices we undertake.Therefore we should sincerely work hard towards our goal and not let the distraction of the masses affect our passion,beliefs and values !
I am sharing a poem at the end of this post which is written by me and dedicated to all those who sink in grief at times.

Take care and remember me in your prayers.

        UNSEATING THE GRIEF

How long do you wish to grieve?
Gobbling aleve is not a reprieve
Crying endlessly overnight
Triggers panic attacks of fright.
You know it well
That no one can hear you cry,
Then why wet the pillow
Nothing is worth your billow!

It is time to control life’s baton
So break the moan and move on!

Pluck all the strings of heart
Without turning tart.
Grooves in the heart may never heal
Yet they may be neatly sealed.
Suffering has made you hollow
Yet hope commands you to wallow!

It is time to ban the trials of appeasement,
By learning the art of detachment.

There is no need to brag
For this perfunctory world will discard it like a rag!
Learn to keep rants to yourself
For no being will act as an elf.
Life is not a pain
Then why do you act insane?

It is time to be independent
Without sinking in abandonment!

Strolling behind aimlessly
Is like playing with life foolishly.
Kick off your depression,
Articulate goal with a new vision.
Stop acting gullible,
All your weaknesses are eradicable!

It is time to show bravery
For the mind hates your slavery!

Never rely on a shoulder
That offers you relief,
Instead be a soldier
Uprooting others’ grief!
Everyone is fighting a harder battle,
Then why exhaust others with your prattle!
For no one will never empathize,
Rather foolishly sympathize!

It is time for you to rise,
Be a philogeant to tranquilize.
Vandalize the delusion,
Demystify the illusion!
Time for awakening,
Realize your passion and austerity
To make your dreams a reality.

It is time to leave the world of fallacy,
To create your province of ecstasy!

 

Unveiling The Masquerade

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Your innumerable trials
In fretful agita ,
To attain the perfect smile
That beseems immaculately
In the ever changing frame of others.
I fail to fathom
Your inner foist ,
If it is self obsession
Or the fear of unacceptability ?

When you choose to busily ignore ,
Those who have caused you hurt
It somehow seems like an intentional escape !
Have you really forgotten and forgiven them
Or is it your way to alleviate the pain ?

As you generously help and accompany others
Suddenly out of the way ;
I wonder if you are actually so benevolent
Or is to assuage your own helplessness and solitude ?

When you act nice as a pie ,

I fail to decipher ,
Between the Real you
And your arduous efforts
Meant to create an indelible impression !

During your euphoria moments
When you party overnight,
Coordinating moves with stentorian pop ;
I am not able to discern ,
If you are truly enjoying
Or just desperately trying
To resonate your achievements
In order to gather fame
Among your affluent invitees !

Seeing you suffering through the downs
When you resort to indoors ;
I eagerly wish to know
What are you hiding from ?
The sarcasm of the perfunctory world
Or is it your own scintillating aura
That you cannot watch disappearing !

My sincere efforts go in vain
As I try discovering you ,
For I miserably fail to define you !
Unable to reach even to a single conclusion
About the Real You !
I choose not to give up on you
For I know you are something divine !

Now I will wait
On my hand and foot ,
Even if it will be a long haul. ;
For that one day out of the blue ,
When you will have the courage
Of your convictions
And will take it in both hands
By loving yourself enough ,
To uncover your tightly fitted mask
Finally evanescing the air of pretence !

Going Beyond Friendship

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Broken and shattered they were,
Silently enduring the pain
For people reverted to their wishes
With so much of negativity!
Turning them heartless and hopeless.
Blinding them to such an extent
That everything seemed an illusion!

However time was not to remain,
Ever the same

For relief had to release vexation;
As they banged into each other!

Empathising with each other’s agony,
They could not help consoling.
Without an expectation,
Each offered the other
A comforting shoulder.

Failing to acknowledge 
The blooming love 
That was growing between them,
Giving birth to a relationship
That was beyond companionship;
Each decided to move on,
Giving importance to other priorities!

They parted ways uneasily
Leaving each other with a temporary smile
And an indelible memory
That would symbolise
Their short tenure of togetherness!

However the hope
In their hearts 
Never died
As they wished and prayed desperately
For their paths to cross some day!

 

A Letter to My Dad

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                   Hey Dad,

I don’t know what to shower on you,
Love or hatred;
For you have never been there
When I needed you the most!

You were not there,
When I took my first step
Into this unknown world;
Anyways it is okay dad
For you were checking
The steps of our enemies across the border.

You were not present
When I uttered my first word ‘Dad’
While everyone else was around.
Anyways it is okay dad
For you had no other option
Than to follow the commands of your seniors.

I wish you were here
To take my side and resolve the conflicts
As I had arguments with mom;
Anyways I let it go dad
For you had numerous skirmishes
To win over,anyhow.

I still remember the false promises
You made every year
To be there on my birthday;
Anyways I understand dad
For you had bigger commitments
Towards our nation!

I wish you could atleast make it
To the competitions and events
Where I shone no less than a star;
Anyways it is okay dad
For you were struggling hard
Between your transfers.

How I wanted so many times
That you could be here to console mom
When you went to the wars;
However we never lost hope
Regarding the upcoming days
When we would dine and play together

So you see dad
I am ready to forgive you
As I understand
Nation always comes first
But only if you can come back!
I don’t know where to post this letter now
As I am tired looking for you
Around the world;
For you exist nowhere
Other than my memory!