Unveiling The Masquerade



Your innumerable trials
In fretful agita ,
To attain the perfect smile
That beseems immaculately
In the ever changing frame of others.
I fail to fathom
Your inner foist ,
If it is self obsession
Or the fear of unacceptability ?

When you choose to busily ignore ,
Those who have caused you hurt
It somehow seems like an intentional escape !
Have you really forgotten and forgiven them
Or is it your way to alleviate the pain ?

As you generously help and accompany others
Suddenly out of the way ;
I wonder if you are actually so benevolent
Or is to assuage your own helplessness and solitude ?

When you act nice as a pie ,

I fail to decipher ,
Between the Real you
And your arduous efforts
Meant to create an indelible impression !

During your euphoria moments
When you party overnight,
Coordinating moves with stentorian pop ;
I am not able to discern ,
If you are truly enjoying
Or just desperately trying
To resonate your achievements
In order to gather fame
Among your affluent invitees !

Seeing you suffering through the downs
When you resort to indoors ;
I eagerly wish to know
What are you hiding from ?
The sarcasm of the perfunctory world
Or is it your own scintillating aura
That you cannot watch disappearing !

My sincere efforts go in vain
As I try discovering you ,
For I miserably fail to define you !
Unable to reach even to a single conclusion
About the Real You !
I choose not to give up on you
For I know you are something divine !

Now I will wait
On my hand and foot ,
Even if it will be a long haul. ;
For that one day out of the blue ,
When you will have the courage
Of your convictions
And will take it in both hands
By loving yourself enough ,
To uncover your tightly fitted mask
Finally evanescing the air of pretence !


A Pain In My Heart……


I still remember,
Your sugar coated fancy words,
The mesmerising smile on your face.
Unfortunately,I can never forget,
Your surprisingly innovative gifts
That popped from different corners.
All was so enchanting,
As if there was magic in the air!

You knew it well,
How easily I was getting captivated by your charm;
For I was drawing closer to you;
As the days of our companionship
Were increasing in numbers.
However you falsely carried on,
Through your fake wooing part.

Nothing hurts me more
Than your last words,
Leading to our break up;
When you chose to part ways
Saying it was all ‘ONE SIDED’!

I wish if you could know,
What I have been through!
After you left me abandoned
With no evidence,
That could prove your affection towards me.
Rightly it is said;
The more the attachment,
Higher is the pain on unfulfilled expectations.
Thereby expanding the duration of healing.

There was no urge of rebounding,
Neither any heartbreak nor a single tear.
I was just in a trauma,
For having loved a man
Who turned to be a liar,
By disagreeing from his own words!

I hold no desire,
For having you back.
However I find it necessary,
Letting you know,
That I truly loved you by my heart;
Even if it was just a fun by your side.
All the sacrifices I made
Which I still not intend to tell you,
Were my hard efforts
To make you feel comfortable!

I am still wondering,
What made my heart fell for you;
If for a long term
You had no intention,
Reciprocating my deep sentiments back!

(It is just a piece of my imagination)