Vanishing for now…..

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I don’t know for how long I will be away from blogging.It is time for me to carve my own path and stand on my own legs so that my noble intentions are able to execute something great in the near future.I would like to thank my wordpress family that has been so supportive and loving.I have learnt a lot from this humble fraternity.I think in reality,I don’t feel so special as I feel here.A heart felt warm gratitude to Mrs.Ranjeeta Nath Ghai aka https://atrangizindagieksafar.com/who is the person behind my blogging.Without her I hold no existence here.I also got a pleasant opportunity to connect with great like minded bloggers here.

I would like to leave some lines from the book (Discover Your Destiny by Robin Sharma) that I have been reading recently :

”It is hard to believe that we live in a world where most people are more concerned with following the crowd and doing what everyone else is doing than living the dreams.Getting to the end or even the middle of your life and waking up one day to the understanding that you did not dare,that you did not reach for the stars,that you did not realize even one-tenth of your potential will break your heart.At the end of our lives,what fills our hearts with regret are not all the risks we took instead,what causes us to feel immense sadness is thinking about all the risks we didn’t take.There is but one failure in life that is the failure to try.”

”The past is a grave and it makes no sense to spend your life living in a grave.Every ending represents a new beginning.You cannot move forward in life if you’re stuck looking in the rear view mirror”

”Everyone of us creates a story about his own life,even if he only tells it to himself.For some,the story is all about being a victim.The way they are because of their childhoods or because of the bad things that have happened to them.So many people in the world today are professional victims.Because playing victim is easy.You do have to take have to assume any responsibility for the way your life looks.You can blame everyone else for what’s not working in your life,never having to look at yourself and make the changes required.”

”Every year I live I am more convinced that the waste of life lies in the love we have not given,the powers we have not used,the self prudence that will risk nothing,and which,shirking pain, missed happiness as well.No one ever yet was poorer in the long run having once in a lifetime let out all the length of the reins.”

These were the above few lines that have forced me to take control of my life so that I don’t regret later.
As I see so many great people around me who are doing noble work for the needy,all I realize is that their lives have never been easy.It has always been a struggle yet they never brag or blame anyone for their past failures.It enlightens me with the fact that our success is directly proportional with the sacrifices we undertake.Therefore we should sincerely work hard towards our goal and not let the distraction of the masses affect our passion,beliefs and values !
I am sharing a poem at the end of this post which is written by me and dedicated to all those who sink in grief at times.

Take care and remember me in your prayers.

        UNSEATING THE GRIEF

How long do you wish to grieve?
Gobbling aleve is not a reprieve
Crying endlessly overnight
Triggers panic attacks of fright.
You know it well
That no one can hear you cry,
Then why wet the pillow
Nothing is worth your billow!

It is time to control life’s baton
So break the moan and move on!

Pluck all the strings of heart
Without turning tart.
Grooves in the heart may never heal
Yet they may be neatly sealed.
Suffering has made you hollow
Yet hope commands you to wallow!

It is time to ban the trials of appeasement,
By learning the art of detachment.

There is no need to brag
For this perfunctory world will discard it like a rag!
Learn to keep rants to yourself
For no being will act as an elf.
Life is not a pain
Then why do you act insane?

It is time to be independent
Without sinking in abandonment!

Strolling behind aimlessly
Is like playing with life foolishly.
Kick off your depression,
Articulate goal with a new vision.
Stop acting gullible,
All your weaknesses are eradicable!

It is time to show bravery
For the mind hates your slavery!

Never rely on a shoulder
That offers you relief,
Instead be a soldier
Uprooting others’ grief!
Everyone is fighting a harder battle,
Then why exhaust others with your prattle!
For no one will never empathize,
Rather foolishly sympathize!

It is time for you to rise,
Be a philogeant to tranquilize.
Vandalize the delusion,
Demystify the illusion!
Time for awakening,
Realize your passion and austerity
To make your dreams a reality.

It is time to leave the world of fallacy,
To create your province of ecstasy!

 

At My Own Pace

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Recently I have been reading ‘Discover Your Destiny’ by Robin Sharma.There are beautiful lessons on each page which are not motivational but transformational.Now I seriously believe that motivation dies but discipline stays.

Unlike other books,I am reading this one very slowly so that I am able to absorb each and every word and apply it in my life.I have always been wondering that why I feel so disillusioned at times despite the fact that I read so many spiritual writings and listen to great people around who are always high in positivity.Although I have not finished reading the book yet I am satisfied to discover the cause of my state.
I came across the following lines which struck very hard on my madness to change my fretful nature :

Personal transformation is not a race.Actually,sometimes the harder you try to change,the longer it takes.So many people treat self discovery like an extreme sport – rushing to get all their healing at a frenetic pace.They read book after book.they visit guide after guide and attend seminar after seminar.They want to know the answers to the big questions they are struggling with.But someone who cannot sit in the mystery of their lives and enjoy the process of personal growth is a person in fear.”

I felt as if the above mentioned lines are written for me for I have been taking transformation as a personal challenge and so failing to apply change in my life,I suffered breakdowns.I have been forcing things on myself at a hurried pace without knowing its true benefits.It was like whenever I came across something positive,I immediately tried implementing it without accepting the challenges or discipline that accompany or is wanted with that good.It was as if I was creating a false sense of security thinking that it would be a nice way of alleviating pain.Rather bringing change slowly, one at a time,I have been acting madly to be the best of myself.I have tried being an open book so that I feel I am very clear and pristine.However now I realize,Kaizen technique is what I need to apply in my life.Rather than rushing for gulping the best that is available around,I need to choose what suits me the best and then absorb,no matter how much time it takes.
I used to get super excited whenever I read people’s stories of self discovery thinking such miracles would happen with me too.I failed to realize that it is a personal experience that varies from person to person.It happens with those who identify their fears and the barriers which have been hampering their inner growth and then seek cheerful ways to rise above them.
Thus from now on, I have decided that I will work patiently on myself and keep a constant check on my thoughts to keep my words and actions in control.

Unveiling The Masquerade

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Your innumerable trials
In fretful agita ,
To attain the perfect smile
That beseems immaculately
In the ever changing frame of others.
I fail to fathom
Your inner foist ,
If it is self obsession
Or the fear of unacceptability ?

When you choose to busily ignore ,
Those who have caused you hurt
It somehow seems like an intentional escape !
Have you really forgotten and forgiven them
Or is it your way to alleviate the pain ?

As you generously help and accompany others
Suddenly out of the way ;
I wonder if you are actually so benevolent
Or is to assuage your own helplessness and solitude ?

When you act nice as a pie ,

I fail to decipher ,
Between the Real you
And your arduous efforts
Meant to create an indelible impression !

During your euphoria moments
When you party overnight,
Coordinating moves with stentorian pop ;
I am not able to discern ,
If you are truly enjoying
Or just desperately trying
To resonate your achievements
In order to gather fame
Among your affluent invitees !

Seeing you suffering through the downs
When you resort to indoors ;
I eagerly wish to know
What are you hiding from ?
The sarcasm of the perfunctory world
Or is it your own scintillating aura
That you cannot watch disappearing !

My sincere efforts go in vain
As I try discovering you ,
For I miserably fail to define you !
Unable to reach even to a single conclusion
About the Real You !
I choose not to give up on you
For I know you are something divine !

Now I will wait
On my hand and foot ,
Even if it will be a long haul. ;
For that one day out of the blue ,
When you will have the courage
Of your convictions
And will take it in both hands
By loving yourself enough ,
To uncover your tightly fitted mask
Finally evanescing the air of pretence !

REFLECTING BACK

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2016 has been the year of my transformation.I can describe it as the best as well as the worst year.Firstly,I will explain the reasons for it being the year of my actions that I will never like to repeat.
I messed up with people whom I had been following since a long time.Someone tried pulling me down and in return I acted as a demon(I cannot believe it now but I seriously turned revengeful).Then I dropped out from the race of my dreams that I have been chasing from high school.For a while I completely lost my zeal,enthusiasm and the willingness to work.I even forgot for a few months that I am still 20(so probably have a right to commit mistakes and take risks).This made me indulge into self criticism and I was trapped in a ‘cognitive triad’.I was too depressed seeing my life going directionless.There were so many contradicting thoughts.All I can now say that it was just useless overthinking.

However something that changed my life was my sudden interest to delve in spirituality.I desperately wanted to come out of my guilt mode in which I was constantly harming myself.Spirituality calmed all my anxiety and helped me come out of depression.It totally changed my perception about life.Then I realised how gullible I had been.By giving the remote control of my mind to other people and situations,I was ruining my life.I also met people who were in situations worse than me;people who experienced a sudden downfall or lost their loved ones.From such people,I learnt that I need to smile and be thankful in all circumstances as my  condition is much better than so many existing on this earth.After all what I was experiencing was just temporary.No thing or situation was to remain same forever.

2016 has been really very special for me as it taught the real meaning of ‘Happiness’ and ‘Joy’.

Thus, I learnt the following lessons during the year;

*From Relationships:
-Never be pretentious.Be natural and express all feelings clearly.
-Never compromise for someone by sacrificing the real ‘self’.
-Love unconditionally(I mean no ‘give and take’,just give without expectations).
-Accepting people as they are.(Either accept or  leave,no need to suffocate).

*From life:
-Never search happiness in people or objects.Searching in others means being dependent.This will certainly be the cause of loneliness at some point of time.
-Life is not a competition.It is all about giving the best of the ability.
-Accepting the results or the fruits of the action as they are.
-There is nothing such as ‘luck.’It is all a matter of past Karmic account.

Oh,I forgot to mention my achievements during the year.So I would love to tell everyone that I have got rid of my extreme judgemental nature!I have thereby turned into a philogeant(though a partial one).I am finally at peace as no longer I suffer from insecurities of losing.All I realise that each human being is on its own journey and so we do not need to be like anyone or crave for the lifestyle that the other is living.We do not have any right to  criticise anyone.So now I know the joy of life does not lie in beating others but winning over the weaknesses of the ‘self’!

So for the upcoming New Year,I have no special resolutions except for one.It is to stick to the path that I have recently chosen for myself while keeping the lessons in my mind!

The Trial of Acceptance

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Acceptance is no tolerance
Instead an ignorance
Of  flaws and blotches,
That mars the psyche,
Demeans the soul
And exists in beasts and entities.

Accepting with miserableness
Results in painfulness
Vanishes all happiness!
Myth evolves,
As we associate
Acceptance with suffering,
Forgetting it is compromising
For our cherished ones!

All that acceptance claims,
Is an act of forbearance
Without excruciation or wretchedness!
Only  changing the perception
And going through transfiguration,
Can leave an extraordinary impression!

Never expect transformation,
Learn the art of accommodation
Not for bearing injustice or salvation
But to become an inspiration!

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THE INFINITE ILLUSION

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This world  is an illusion,
However everyone fails to realise this delusion.
All people are here to play their parts,
Either enjoying or groaning
Along the worldly ride on their life carts.
Some turn out to be hero and some devil.

I wish people could realize,
How they could hear their inner voice.
But people in their roles are too busy,
Unconcerned to reveal their soul’s mystery!

Watching others is an irony,
The way people depend on prophecy.
Instead of having their own convictions,
People rely on predictions.

Humans fight for wealth, property and possessions,
And having got them all still suffer from depression.
Ears become deaf in the sound of worldly objects,
And eyes turn blind to see what the soul tries to project!

We neglect the sufferings of others that we see,
And just get busy in our own glee.
All of us lack sensitivity,
As the soul has forgotten all its dignity.

Whatever materialistic we acquire is the body’s obsession
And not our soul’s suggestion.
Our soul does warn us from time to time to see the real goal,
But we still ignore the guidance of the soul.

Everyone wants to create things by wasteful imagination
And not by the soul’s creation.
All our deeds are for others’ appreciation
Instead for our soul’s recognition!

People find pleasure in relationships
And cheer and rejoice in all friendships;
It creates a sense of possessiveness
And one loses all his submissiveness.
Failing to realize all that it creates is attachments
That a stage comes,
When they are broken in fragments!

Each soul today is insecure
Because no one is using the right cure.
As all have closed their internal receptors
And so have become the ultimate predators!

HE as his angels has sent many wise
But no one wants to listen to their advice.
Each one knows
The soul finds peace in meditation
Still no one wants to spend time in HIS devotion!

I wish each one knew their inner potential,
To realize how much the soul is substantial.
Failing to realize their power and propulsion
None are able to break the ongoing deception!
Although the world is advancing
Yet the soul is demeaning.

Oh ALMIGHTY,
Grant me the sincerity
To make others know the verity.
Not by adopting blind measures which are strange
But by myself being a change.
So that each one can feel Your presence
And realize their soul’s essence!