2016 has been the year of my transformation.I can describe it as the best as well as the worst year.Firstly,I will explain the reasons for it being the year of my actions that I will never like to repeat.
I messed up with people whom I had been following since a long time.Someone tried pulling me down and in return I acted as a demon(I cannot believe it now but I seriously turned revengeful).Then I dropped out from the race of my dreams that I have been chasing from high school.For a while I completely lost my zeal,enthusiasm and the willingness to work.I even forgot for a few months that I am still 20(so probably have a right to commit mistakes and take risks).This made me indulge into self criticism and I was trapped in a ‘cognitive triad’.I was too depressed seeing my life going directionless.There were so many contradicting thoughts.All I can now say that it was just useless overthinking.
However something that changed my life was my sudden interest to delve in spirituality.I desperately wanted to come out of my guilt mode in which I was constantly harming myself.Spirituality calmed all my anxiety and helped me come out of depression.It totally changed my perception about life.Then I realised how gullible I had been.By giving the remote control of my mind to other people and situations,I was ruining my life.I also met people who were in situations worse than me;people who experienced a sudden downfall or lost their loved ones.From such people,I learnt that I need to smile and be thankful in all circumstances as my condition is much better than so many existing on this earth.After all what I was experiencing was just temporary.No thing or situation was to remain same forever.
2016 has been really very special for me as it taught the real meaning of ‘Happiness’ and ‘Joy’.
Thus, I learnt the following lessons during the year;
-Never be pretentious.Be natural and express all feelings clearly.
-Never compromise for someone by sacrificing the real ‘self’.
-Love unconditionally(I mean no ‘give and take’,just give without expectations).
-Accepting people as they are.(Either accept or leave,no need to suffocate).
-Never search happiness in people or objects.Searching in others means being dependent.This will certainly be the cause of loneliness at some point of time.
-Life is not a competition.It is all about giving the best of the ability.
-Accepting the results or the fruits of the action as they are.
-There is nothing such as ‘luck.’It is all a matter of past Karmic account.
Oh,I forgot to mention my achievements during the year.So I would love to tell everyone that I have got rid of my extreme judgemental nature!I have thereby turned into a philogeant(though a partial one).I am finally at peace as no longer I suffer from insecurities of losing.All I realise that each human being is on its own journey and so we do not need to be like anyone or crave for the lifestyle that the other is living.We do not have any right to criticise anyone.So now I know the joy of life does not lie in beating others but winning over the weaknesses of the ‘self’!
So for the upcoming New Year,I have no special resolutions except for one.It is to stick to the path that I have recently chosen for myself while keeping the lessons in my mind!