Vanishing for now…..

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I don’t know for how long I will be away from blogging.It is time for me to carve my own path and stand on my own legs so that my noble intentions are able to execute something great in the near future.I would like to thank my wordpress family that has been so supportive and loving.I have learnt a lot from this humble fraternity.I think in reality,I don’t feel so special as I feel here.A heart felt warm gratitude to Mrs.Ranjeeta Nath Ghai aka https://atrangizindagieksafar.com/who is the person behind my blogging.Without her I hold no existence here.I also got a pleasant opportunity to connect with great like minded bloggers here.

I would like to leave some lines from the book (Discover Your Destiny by Robin Sharma) that I have been reading recently :

”It is hard to believe that we live in a world where most people are more concerned with following the crowd and doing what everyone else is doing than living the dreams.Getting to the end or even the middle of your life and waking up one day to the understanding that you did not dare,that you did not reach for the stars,that you did not realize even one-tenth of your potential will break your heart.At the end of our lives,what fills our hearts with regret are not all the risks we took instead,what causes us to feel immense sadness is thinking about all the risks we didn’t take.There is but one failure in life that is the failure to try.”

”The past is a grave and it makes no sense to spend your life living in a grave.Every ending represents a new beginning.You cannot move forward in life if you’re stuck looking in the rear view mirror”

”Everyone of us creates a story about his own life,even if he only tells it to himself.For some,the story is all about being a victim.The way they are because of their childhoods or because of the bad things that have happened to them.So many people in the world today are professional victims.Because playing victim is easy.You do have to take have to assume any responsibility for the way your life looks.You can blame everyone else for what’s not working in your life,never having to look at yourself and make the changes required.”

”Every year I live I am more convinced that the waste of life lies in the love we have not given,the powers we have not used,the self prudence that will risk nothing,and which,shirking pain, missed happiness as well.No one ever yet was poorer in the long run having once in a lifetime let out all the length of the reins.”

These were the above few lines that have forced me to take control of my life so that I don’t regret later.
As I see so many great people around me who are doing noble work for the needy,all I realize is that their lives have never been easy.It has always been a struggle yet they never brag or blame anyone for their past failures.It enlightens me with the fact that our success is directly proportional with the sacrifices we undertake.Therefore we should sincerely work hard towards our goal and not let the distraction of the masses affect our passion,beliefs and values !
I am sharing a poem at the end of this post which is written by me and dedicated to all those who sink in grief at times.

Take care and remember me in your prayers.

        UNSEATING THE GRIEF

How long do you wish to grieve?
Gobbling aleve is not a reprieve
Crying endlessly overnight
Triggers panic attacks of fright.
You know it well
That no one can hear you cry,
Then why wet the pillow
Nothing is worth your billow!

It is time to control life’s baton
So break the moan and move on!

Pluck all the strings of heart
Without turning tart.
Grooves in the heart may never heal
Yet they may be neatly sealed.
Suffering has made you hollow
Yet hope commands you to wallow!

It is time to ban the trials of appeasement,
By learning the art of detachment.

There is no need to brag
For this perfunctory world will discard it like a rag!
Learn to keep rants to yourself
For no being will act as an elf.
Life is not a pain
Then why do you act insane?

It is time to be independent
Without sinking in abandonment!

Strolling behind aimlessly
Is like playing with life foolishly.
Kick off your depression,
Articulate goal with a new vision.
Stop acting gullible,
All your weaknesses are eradicable!

It is time to show bravery
For the mind hates your slavery!

Never rely on a shoulder
That offers you relief,
Instead be a soldier
Uprooting others’ grief!
Everyone is fighting a harder battle,
Then why exhaust others with your prattle!
For no one will never empathize,
Rather foolishly sympathize!

It is time for you to rise,
Be a philogeant to tranquilize.
Vandalize the delusion,
Demystify the illusion!
Time for awakening,
Realize your passion and austerity
To make your dreams a reality.

It is time to leave the world of fallacy,
To create your province of ecstasy!

 

At My Own Pace

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Recently I have been reading ‘Discover Your Destiny’ by Robin Sharma.There are beautiful lessons on each page which are not motivational but transformational.Now I seriously believe that motivation dies but discipline stays.

Unlike other books,I am reading this one very slowly so that I am able to absorb each and every word and apply it in my life.I have always been wondering that why I feel so disillusioned at times despite the fact that I read so many spiritual writings and listen to great people around who are always high in positivity.Although I have not finished reading the book yet I am satisfied to discover the cause of my state.
I came across the following lines which struck very hard on my madness to change my fretful nature :

Personal transformation is not a race.Actually,sometimes the harder you try to change,the longer it takes.So many people treat self discovery like an extreme sport – rushing to get all their healing at a frenetic pace.They read book after book.they visit guide after guide and attend seminar after seminar.They want to know the answers to the big questions they are struggling with.But someone who cannot sit in the mystery of their lives and enjoy the process of personal growth is a person in fear.”

I felt as if the above mentioned lines are written for me for I have been taking transformation as a personal challenge and so failing to apply change in my life,I suffered breakdowns.I have been forcing things on myself at a hurried pace without knowing its true benefits.It was like whenever I came across something positive,I immediately tried implementing it without accepting the challenges or discipline that accompany or is wanted with that good.It was as if I was creating a false sense of security thinking that it would be a nice way of alleviating pain.Rather bringing change slowly, one at a time,I have been acting madly to be the best of myself.I have tried being an open book so that I feel I am very clear and pristine.However now I realize,Kaizen technique is what I need to apply in my life.Rather than rushing for gulping the best that is available around,I need to choose what suits me the best and then absorb,no matter how much time it takes.
I used to get super excited whenever I read people’s stories of self discovery thinking such miracles would happen with me too.I failed to realize that it is a personal experience that varies from person to person.It happens with those who identify their fears and the barriers which have been hampering their inner growth and then seek cheerful ways to rise above them.
Thus from now on, I have decided that I will work patiently on myself and keep a constant check on my thoughts to keep my words and actions in control.

Lessons from the Nature

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I wish to expand like the infinite sky
Whose power is beyond any limit or measure.

I wish to stand like the unshakable mountain
Whose determination can never be shattered.

I wish to be like the never still wave
That always rise after the fall.

I wish to be like the fruit laden tree
That always bends down in deep modesty.

I wish to shine like a star in the sky
That provides light at the stygian times.

I wish to be like the fresh green leaf
That helps others survive by providing food to all.

I wish to fly like the chirpy bird
That covers immeasurable distances without fears and worries.

I wish to spread like the huge ocean
That gives peace to the eye and soothing abode to many.

I wish to rise like the sun
That lingers hope after the vehement torrent.

I wish to blossom like the blithesome flower
That blooms despite knowing its withering fate.

There is so much to learn from the healing nature
That is so genuine and does not wear a drape of pretence!

The feel of Rain

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Last week,I was driving my scooty along a lonely road with one of my friend sitting behind me when suddenly a mild storm hit the area.Since the winds were chilly,we planned not to stop rather I lowered my driving speed.Soon there was a downpour and so we enjoyed the rain while driving at a snail’s pace.It was the first time that I had gone wet completely.Although I love rains yet never got an opportunity to enjoy it for it always rained at the wrong time earlier when I could not afford to get wet.Most importantly,my mom fears that I will get sick so probably I never took the risk to go against her wishes as she is very strict.However this time I took advantage of my situation and could not stop myself to take a feel of getting wet in the rain.The experience was great and I cannot express in words how I was feeling at that time, free of worries and most importantly the upward curve on my face was constant! Anyways I have written few lines regarding my experience.I hope it is worth a read.

The pitter-patter that comes the rain,
Unconsciously soothes my brain.
Very soon it makes me wet,
Yet I enjoy the chills without a fret!

The tranquil susurration that play in my ears,
Rids me temporarily of my parochial fears!
As the rain drops seep down my heart,
All my skepticism slowly departs.

Franaticaly it unburdens all my worries,
Kicking off life’s all unwanted flurries.
Surreally it releases my nervosity,
Making me forget my anxiety!

As the purifying rain touches my soul,
All the disillusionment vanish regarding my goal!
Never does it forget to leave its legacy
That is ephemeral and more like a fantasy;
Including the enchanting smell of the water-soaked mud
And the vibrant charming rainbow
Which never fails to make our spirit glow!

Karma is Bliss

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While I constantly work upon myself to evolve into a better being ,I observe a pattern of emotional imbalance in my mind at frequent intervals .This extremities of emotions is not a repercussion of any success  failure in my life rather it is the result of disillusionment in my mind. While working ,I feel content and focused. However when I think about my future goals,skepticism arise in my mind.It is not a depressive state for the period of inner hollowness is not prolonged.

Anyways,fed up of this weird feeling,I mailed to my great mentor,last night.Fortunately I got a call from him this morning and he answered my questions peacefully.So here I post the conversation(hope it helps few).

Teacher: Good Morning! I saw your mail early morning.It seems your are too perturbed.Well, what made you write that long mail.
Me: Sir,I was feeling anxious,sleepless and little abnormal last night and so just wrote my heart out.
Teacher: How ‘Abnormal’?
Me: I wrote about disillusionment and that is what makes me feel weird!
Teacher: This is what all of us suffer at some point in our life and so there is nothing abnormal.We all learn to face it by ignoring our negative thoughts as we focus on our karma!
Me: Although I am doing my karma yet I feel so dissatisfied.Moreover there is nothing such as negative thoughts in my mind.
Teacher: Any thought that drains your energy,leaving you unhappy is negative,so accept that you are indulging in negativity and your mind is becoming habituated to it.By the way,you are not doing your ‘karma’ well.
Me: Okay.What makes you say that I am not doing my duties well as I am working hard.
Teacher: One can indulge in such sinking thoughts only in idle time when one is escaping his karma or when there is probably no clarity in mind regarding the right karma.
Me: No,it is not like that.I am doing my duties well.It is only during the time when I am walking,eating,bathing or even trying to sleep that my thoughts run at a very fast pace and I feel hollow and blank at the same time.
Teacher: So don’t you think that even activities like walking and eating require the attention of your brain as they are important for your body.Thus,even they are a part of your duties that deserve to be performed well.
Me: Yes.
Teacher: Then why not live in the present when you have so much to do.Your plans to help the needy in the near future can be a reality only when you choose your thoughts wisely towards your goals.
Me: But goals make me disillusioned.
Teacher: Goals are the driving force,they can never make one feel disillusioned.It is the journey that you are fearing.You are forgetting your infinite potential and doubting your own capabilities.Don’t plan so much for you never know God’s will.All you can do is climb the little steps to your destination without fearing your fall.
Me:But the fear of fall will always be there!
Teacher: Why,what worse will happen when you will fall.In case you get injured,there are many antiseptics available in the market.Apply it and then resume the climb.
Me: It is not that easy to start again.
Teacher: It is not a new start for you will be an experienced fellow and so you will be more careful and wise.More the experience,greater the chance of your success!Moreover let me clarify further that this feeling of disillusionment is never a random thought but a pain of the past that has not fully healed and that sinks you down.Therefore develop immunity to face the obstacles and  pain.Don’t try to suppress it or alleviate it by wasteful thinking or by taking overdoze of motivation otherwise this feeling will continue popping up.This is also the reason of your lacking will power.
Me: Yes you are right.I feel totally drained out during such times and that actually affects my other activities too.
Teacher: Just focus on performing your karma well,everything else will fall in right place and you will feel happy internally!Life is too short,don’t bother about the failures.Everyone has their own lows but choice is ours.Whether we choose to rise back to find the higher purpose of our life or continue being lost in the wasteful thoughts about our gone past or uncertain future,depends entirely on us.
Me: Yes you are right.Doing right karma at the right time whole heartedly will leave no time for me to sink in negativity.Thank you so much for your guidance.
Teacher: I hope,I made some sense and I will pray that you don’t cling to those thoughts again!

Unveiling The Masquerade

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Your innumerable trials
In fretful agita ,
To attain the perfect smile
That beseems immaculately
In the ever changing frame of others.
I fail to fathom
Your inner foist ,
If it is self obsession
Or the fear of unacceptability ?

When you choose to busily ignore ,
Those who have caused you hurt
It somehow seems like an intentional escape !
Have you really forgotten and forgiven them
Or is it your way to alleviate the pain ?

As you generously help and accompany others
Suddenly out of the way ;
I wonder if you are actually so benevolent
Or is to assuage your own helplessness and solitude ?

When you act nice as a pie ,

I fail to decipher ,
Between the Real you
And your arduous efforts
Meant to create an indelible impression !

During your euphoria moments
When you party overnight,
Coordinating moves with stentorian pop ;
I am not able to discern ,
If you are truly enjoying
Or just desperately trying
To resonate your achievements
In order to gather fame
Among your affluent invitees !

Seeing you suffering through the downs
When you resort to indoors ;
I eagerly wish to know
What are you hiding from ?
The sarcasm of the perfunctory world
Or is it your own scintillating aura
That you cannot watch disappearing !

My sincere efforts go in vain
As I try discovering you ,
For I miserably fail to define you !
Unable to reach even to a single conclusion
About the Real You !
I choose not to give up on you
For I know you are something divine !

Now I will wait
On my hand and foot ,
Even if it will be a long haul. ;
For that one day out of the blue ,
When you will have the courage
Of your convictions
And will take it in both hands
By loving yourself enough ,
To uncover your tightly fitted mask
Finally evanescing the air of pretence !

The Blue Sky Tag

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It feels good to be a bearer of this tag which signifies infinite genuinity and simplicity (as I interpret literally).Moreover being different from virtual awards I find it unique and special as the formalities that are attached with this tag are fascinating (the question answer part).
I am extremely thankful to  Rav aka https://insideblackhole.wordpress.com/ for passing on this lovely tag to me.I would kindly request everyone to have a glance at her blog where she intriguingly expresses her love for the world of stars!

Here are few Rav’s questions which I am supposed to answer :

1) What are you obsessed with right now?

I think I am so obsessed with my goal right now that it is reducing the efficiency of my daily karma and so I am trying to cool myself down.

2) What do you think is inside a black hole?

I feel fearful even thinking of it and so for me it is no less than blind death.

3) Which mythological creature would you bring to life, if given a chance?

I think Roman God of Love – Cupid as I have a long list of complaints ready to be filed against him! 

4) Do you believe that aliens have come to earth in the past?

No I don’t think so.

5) Which anime would you recommend and why? (ie if you watch)

I have watched very childish ones like Pokemon,Perman,Shinchan and Doraemon and so don’t know which one to recommend.

6) A book/book series you feel that you should have written instead of that particular author?

‘Siddhartha’ by Hermann Hesse

7) What does your blog mean to you ?

A catharsis to vent off my emotions and a platform for learning and sharing.

8) How long have you been blogging? And what is your advice to rookie bloggers?

I have been blogging since last three and a half months.I would advise new bloggers never to write to impress anyone but just for self satisfaction!

9) Can you play any instrument(s)? If yes, what is it? If no, which instrument(s) would you like to learn?

I am learning Keyboard.

10) One unique thing about you.

I am an ambivert who can mix up with people of all ages.

11) Do like to dance or sing or both or neither of those?

I like to sing English songs only when no one has his ears near my throat.

Rules for passing this Tag are :

1.Thank the person (people) who nominated you.
2.Answer their 11 questions.
3.Tag 11 people.
4.Give them 11 questions to answer.


Therefore I pass this tag to the following people :

https://atrangizindagieksafar.com/
https://dilkiaawazsunoblog.wordpress.com/
https://theshivasponder.wordpress.com/
https://menmystiquesnmysticism.wordpress.com/
https://anonymouscounselor4you.wordpress.com/
http://www.shiningtheory.com/
https://boundlessblessingsblog.wordpress.com/
https://itrainsinmyheart.wordpress.com/
https://pkthebest.wordpress.com/
https://goswamikiran.wordpress.com/
https://madhureo.wordpress.com/

As per the above rule my 11 questions to the above mentioned nominees are:

1) what does spirituality mean to you?
2)If given an opportunity to change something in your past,what would it be?
3)What is your phobia/fear?
4)Do you ever think of writing a book?If yes,then what would it be based on?
(If you have already published your work,then you may mention your creations)
5)Which is your dream destination?
6)Who is that person or thing that melts you down (as in your weakness)?
7)Is there any habit or trait that you would like to change in yourself?If yes,then what is it?
8)Do you believe in the concept of ‘best friends forever’?
9)Is there any goal that you are currently chasing?
10)Whom do you ardently admire?
11)Do you believe in the statement that we are the creators of our own destiny?If yes then to what extent do you think it is true?